enslaved

every time i step in to the shadow of silence,i hear them...
they rattles within me,
their lament is suppressed by  my silence,
their voice echoes my past,the shades of happiness lingers in them....
memories to which i had lost the key to..
but every time i hold hands with the inner me,i know they are still there,
the tears that flow testimonies that forever i will belong to them...
a slave to my lost dreams.........

veiled....

the tears that filled up my eyes told me i was hurt....there was no other sign that substantiated it....no physical wounds were there to yield out ma pain.....no loud cries that echoed ma silent rattles...no words that expressed the clenching suffocation i was in to... no rational thoughts to tell me the moment will pass... the ongoing salt water that traveled all its way through ma eyes to fall in to ma lap was the only evidence i had, to believe i was hurt..... the cause, the situation, the truth all was in a fog to me.... i didn't know or never dared to explore for i was even more scared of hurting myself.......a fear i had from the start.... even when i stepped on to a way i knew was meant fr the fickle hearts i believed i was on the right tracks.....for all those moments that faked their hues... all those incidents which wore d mask.... i bid u adieu...the last drop that bid ma eye promises never to fill again..as i now know people are not what they are.......and am no longer what i was....

silent lament..

No colours seem to seep through...however hard i try ma brushes fail to trap their shades ... the veiling black adorns ma world...even traces of light drifts away from ma path...d cries that rattle in ma heart threatens to escape out...my quest for d lost hues leaves me stranded ...d lonely company of black haunts me and nw i knw i can always bring in the colour of red.... true red...and den....ma lyf will no lngr be monotonous..........

bruises

Sometimes however hard u try certain things keep popping up... even if u bury them deep ...tell yourself a thousand time the same constant lie in the hope of transforming it in to truth.,  the voice inside keep telling you that one day you will have to face it.....the day wen u will find yourself caged with those scary questions zooming towards you..... they may wound you... u may bleed but for sure the pain endured will be just kept within.and on the balancing scale it will only be in the raised level as it can never compete with the awareness dat the very  people for whom you had hidden all your dreams all your hopes .....are pointing at you..... never ever realizing  d fact dat all your acts were just for them... for their smile u had to  let go your laughter.... their questioning urge does have greatest concern hidden...but for once if they would realize the heart which had let go all its dreams ...doesn't have the strenght to bear all...inside the smile it has invisible tears always on flow..i don't want to share the blame..... all i am asking is for time ...the time to rise frm those ashes.....

good bye.....

Everyone i met told me ...i should have dreams.....not the ones that visit you in your sleep,
those which whisper to you in every second of you life  to make them real...something you hold close to your heart ...maybe ,at times they are just within the walls of your heart....
mine were like that...only known and visible to me.....others never felt it as mine or i didn't let them feel it waz mine........i know time has long past to fight over the reasons ....but..i need time to get over them...and this is all i have got to tell them.....
"dreams.....fly away from me...so that i can't just feel you....
let me try to  wash away the imprints you left....but definitely everlasting....
let me pursue every attempt to receive those ones adopted....
let me live to raise them  bloom for the hearts i love and care.....
so dreams...my dreams  ..i leave you here...orphans....
with aheart weighed down with grief...with eyes soaked up....
i take those hands of the adopted leaving mine to death..........